Inside Me

Inside Me

©2001 by Bud Lemire

Where do I belong, on this great planet earth

For you see, I was given up for adoption, right near my birth

My Mother didn't think, she could care for me

Inside me is a longing, wondering who she could be

I look at every face, wondering if we'll ever meet

Maybe she is watching me, and lives on my street

Maybe I have brothers, and maybe sisters too

Inside me is a longing, for a blood tie that is true

Maybe she was sick, and maybe died of Cancer

I pray every night, that I will get an answer

Do I look like her, or does she look like me

I have so many questions, wondering who she could be

I've gone through life, with so much missing inside

And so many times, I sat down and cried

It's like I belong somewhere, but where, I don't know

As my life goes on, the stronger these feelings grow

I wonder if she, ever thinks of me

Or wonders at all, where I could be

Has she looked for me at all

I wonder if she's short, or if she's tall

I hope she's warm, and kind and gentle too

And I hope that she prays for her baby that grew

I'd like to think, I inherited her good qualities too

To share them with friends, for my feelings are true

Inside me is a longing, for a blood tie that is true

Tell me Mom, do you think of me too

In 1999 I found I had a sister who had been given

up for adoption. Jeannie is her name, and through

the e-mail, we were in contact. Through that, she

was in contact with our Mom. I got to meet her for

the very first time, not long after Mom reunited with

her. It was a wonderful experience. I decided to write

a poem from the view of the person who was adopted.