Clinical Depression

Clinical Depression

© by Bud Lemire on Nov 29, 2015

With the life threatening illness I face

It's become a terrible place

It's a depression easily misunderstood

When I am in it, it's not very good

It's much worse than the seasonal kind

It's a much darker place in my mind

When you lose a loved one, it's not like that

It's a place where nobody should be at

I have no zest for life, no will to live

My energy is gone, I have nothing to give

It takes control of everything I do

Its darker than the darkest blue

Normal decisions that I usually make

Are the hardest ones that I must take

People don't understand, they say go for walk

They say play some music, but I just can't talk

I want to tell them I have no will, leave me alone

It's the worst place to be, that I have ever known

People think I can get out of it easily, just change the mood

Those kind of people have the wrong kind of attitude

Think of it this way, you're born with love of light

But how would you feel if it was as dark as night

The only thing that I can do, is wait until it is done

Ride it out, and when it is over I shall see the sun

Those thoughts don't come when I am in that dark place

It's like I am alone way out there in outer space

I wouldn't wish this kind of depression onto any soul

Because when I have it, I just don't feel whole

I have it, so I know what it is like to be

In a dark place, I just don't feel like me

Clinical Depression is the worst kind of depression

you can have. It is a dark place to be. Not even music

can lift you out. Nothing can. You just have to ride it

out and wait until you come out of it. Like a lost soul

in a place that is so dark, until the light surrounds you

once again.